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I don't wanna be that girl...

I don't want you to get mad at me
I don't want to be that girl
that you'll always find in the corner crying
I don't want to be that girl
crying cutting and suicidal
I don't want to feel this way
I want a smile on my face
I think about what you say
I let the words sink in
I stay up at night tinking
I want you to be proud of me
not angry or annoyed
not seeing me as just an upset girl
I'm gonna find my way back
to the straight and narrow path
I'm gonna make you happy
I'm gonna make you proud
It's not gonna happen overnight

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The end of lifeI take the blade I cut my wrists I watch the blood flow down my arms
There are no more tears to cry Just simply blood to shed For all the pain I feel inside
I wanna die No one even cares anymore When they see the blade at my wrist
Is this life worth living? Is there someone who really cares? The end of life
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You were the reasonI don't want to be here I don't want to live
I sit in the corner And think of all the ways you hurt me
I thought you'd be the only one Who wasn't gonna leave me
You WERE the reason that I wanted to live
Now your the reason that I want to die
I know you don't care anymore I know that you can't see
Just exactly what you're foing to me You were the reason
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aloneI've sat alone most every night since we have been apart I've begged, I've pleaded, I've cried my tears I've had a pain within my heart
But now my pain has almost gone and my tears have all been cried now I know deep in my heart we'll never (again) be side by side
I know and I admit it, I still love and think of you And still I get the odd days, when I feel really blue But now I know it's time for me, to try and start anew And to push away the memories, the one's I hold of you
I know it won't be easy, but it's something I must do Because of the alone
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An angel fallenAn angel fallen from grace Revoked fromt he gates of heaven Its wings are clipped Has lost its freedom Beautiful angel why have u fallen Torn from innocents The angel chose the fall He could forever fly in grace But gave his wings for one true love That love is gone but never forgotten Angel fallen but never lost He had true love has never forgotten An angel fallen
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The Loved OnesWhy is it always the ones that we love? They are always the ones that are lost Why can’t it be the ones we hate? Always the ones that taint Never the ones who revive We are surrounded by those we hate Forgotten by those we love Never able to see this Never able to change this What can we do? What will be done? We ask these questions but never find an answer Inhabited by those we hate They feed off us as we are farther lost from love Can we change this can we love again? Can we forget the enemy can we stop the hate The Loved Ones
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lalala

Thu Apr 27, 2006, 3:31 PM

ssooooo here's the breakdown lol

School-
I have to get all A's this marking period...well...almost...my parents HATE ne thing but A's. I have an A in Spanish, B in Geometry, B in gym, B in bio, A in english, A in creative writing, and probably an A in history...

so far so good...just get all those B's up, but I still have like 6 weeks...and then there's finals...joyous...

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Friends-
so I lost my best friend Dug, my close friend Robert (I used to write about him a lot, the one that did drugs...I finally couldn't take him calling me all the time high so I stopped talking to him and now we're not friends ne more) me and Amelia are fighting....joyous...I've known her for like 16 years but whatever

uummm me and Kylie have become really close

she's the coolest girl ever...and then there's Vivian that I met a couple weeks ago and I swear to god she cares about me more than some of these people that've known me almost my whole life...but yeah

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Summer-
June 26-July 1 --Girls Camp
sometime in July-- in car driver's ed
July 26- July 29-- Youth Conference here at SC
July 31- Aug 4-- working on graduatione profect
Aug 6-Aug 13-- Vacation to Ocean City Maryland
Aug 14-Aug 18-- finish graduation progect

plus two jobs over the summer....ddaanngg I'm gonna be busy

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*sigh* things are okay overall I guess....very tired very very very stressed, pretty upset...but whatever

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Current Residence: PA
Interests: friends, movies, GETTING OUT OF THE HOUSE, poems music LINKIN PARK!!! etc etc
Favourite movie: A Walk To Remember and 10 Things I Hate About You
Favourite band or musician: Linkin Park
Favourite genre of music: Rock and Metal
Favourite artist: Staind
Favourite poet or writer: me of course :-) JK
Personal Quote: "Best friends are like the wind...they blow nasty clouds away"

Website: http://www.freewebs.com/nevermeanttofade
Email: rjg917@hotmail.com
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MSN: rosemark15@hotmail.com
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~eternityawaits

Aug 10, 2005, 5:39:56 PM

thank you for the devwatch.
im sorry to hear that youre leaving here...but i can understand. ive been thinkin about leaving myself. <3

~ISOVERITY

Jul 17, 2005, 7:00:01 PM

Thank-you Rosemary. I heard a rumor lil Zac may be over a US sky soon lol ; )

Hope all is well

Best,
Iso

=SilverBlackCat

Jul 12, 2005, 10:35:21 AM

Hiya Rosemary, thanks for watchine me

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What's the difference between a circus and a brothel?
A circus has a cunning array of stunts.

~Lozzanne

Jul 12, 2005, 9:49:00 AM

hi.
good stuff.
thanks for watching me.
Laura xx

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~RazorKisstWristz

Jul 4, 2005, 11:13:43 AM

hi! i was wondering if you'd be interested in joining a new club that me and a friend have started up. Sally sent me to you, it's for ex- and recovering cutters. To give support and share one anothers stories.

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~pleasantlyinsane

Feb 26, 2005, 1:25:24 AM

hey there.. i stumbled upon your page.. and there's something that draws me to your work.. So I've decided to stalk you.. hope thats alrighty with you

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